To Hurt or Not to Hurt???

Is it weird to worry when you don't hurt? It seems lately that pain is the order of the day, and when I don't hurt, I think something must be wrong. It is much easier to face the impending surgery if you feel, and I literally mean feel, the need. Not that I want the pain, but I start thinking, "Maybe I don't need this surgery, what if they cut into me and find out they didn't need to." It's funny how I can forget how bad I felt when I feel good and how impossible feeling good seems when I hurt.

For the last couple of days, I have been fighting a cold. I have evening sickness; I feel OK in the morning and gradually get a headache, sore throat, and earache. But, during this time, my belly has not hurt. Maybe I was too busy bellyaching about not wanting a cold to feel the literal bellyache. Be careful what you wish for, the old familiar stabbing pain started up just before I began typing this. That's OK, like I said, it just confirms surgery is the right way to go to clear these problems up.

So, I'm into the final countdown...nine days to go. I had my chest x-ray on Monday and do my lab work on Friday. Next Monday I pre-register at the hospital and have my final pre-op consult with surgeon #2. My poor husband is so concerned for me. He freaked out a little just at my getting a chest x-ray. "Why are you getting an x-ray? What else is wrong? Why didn't you tell me?" I had to reassure him it was just normal pre-op tests, no new problems to worry about. I hope he survives my surgery. Maybe I can get the doctor to prescribe some sedatives for him so he doesn't drive me crazy as we get down to the last couple of days.