Fine Tuning the Focus

I'm starting a new journey. And this one is not dictated by medical issues or circumstances. I feel God is moving me to a new place. It's hard to describe, but I feel a strong pull to allow myself to be taken to the next level. It's a very undefined thing inside of me; yet a definite feeling of a new beginning, a new focus. I'd been thinking about re-focusing my life...on several levels. But just a little while ago, it was almost like God said, "You're done thinking about it, now we are going to do it together... and more," then He flipped some ON switch in me. I'm not even sure exactly what "it" is, but there is a drive in me that is so strong and positive. I'm not sure what form the spiritual part of this journey will take, but I feel excited to see where it will take me.

It's funny, I'm quite clear on the physical things I want to focus on. I tend to be the "all or nothing" type. Perhaps that's an area that needs to be refocused. I do have a list of things that started my thinking about re-focusing, in no particular order:

• Simplify and remove - I have too much stuff. It hasn't been a goal to accumulate things, I'm just a pack rat and the frugal side of me hates getting rid of anything that I might use "someday." I need to do some major tossing of stuff.
• Enjoy the good stuff - I have so many things I have saved for special occasions that I have never used. Things like nice candles, fancy dishes, the good "silver." Living each day is a special occasion enough to enjoy the things we save for later.
• Prioritize play time - I've been spending too much of my free time just watching TV. A bad habit I developed when I didn't feel good enough to do anything else. There are crafts to make, books to read, places to hike. 
• Get out of the jungle - My back yard is embarrassingly neglected. I can't let my grandkids play out there for fear of losing them in the weeds.
• Make Kathy a priority - I need to take care of me. Not in a selfish way. I just don't make the time to give myself the attention I need to be the best I can physically. 

I've started with the end of the list; make Kathy a priority. My exercising, taking vitamins, eating balanced, and everything I need to do to keep me at my best had stopped for a while. I got so busy taking care of things and other people's needs that I stopped taking care of me. That stopped today. I am back on my own radar and back on track.